February 5th: To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before

 

Dear Diary…

Breakups suck. But if there’s one thing that gets me through, it’s Thank U, Next by Ariana Grande. That chorus? Hits every time. She lists everything she learned from her past relationships, and honestly? Same.

I've had my fair share of heartbreak. Okay, two to be exact. But the lessons? So many.

So, to all the boys I’ve loved, thank you.

Thank you for being inconsistent. I learned to show up for myself when you wouldn’t.

Thank you for the gaslighting. I learned to trust myself and not let anyone mess with my reality.

Thank you for making me panic. I found new ways to calm myself down.

Thank you for not being there when I needed you. It made me appreciate the people who actually are.

Thank you for putting me through unnecessary drama. I learned I can handle more than I thought.

Thank you for being irresponsible. I learned how to take care of things myself.

Thank you for being disrespectful. It made me more aware of how I treat others and listen when I'm told I've hurt them.

Thank you for being unavailable. I learned to enjoy my own company.

Thank you for talking big but doing nothing. Now, I pay attention to actions, not words.

Thank you for making me feel like I was too much. Turns out, I was never too much. You were just not enough.

And most of all, thank you for showing me what love isn’t. Because now, I know what love should be.

To all the boys I’ve loved before… may lightning strike you.

With love,

Hoodie Girl ❤️❤️